Still in love, but the lonliness is killing me, any advice?

o honey that made my heart hurt just reading it. It is hard because u are in love, but u know these kind of things are addictions and need to be treated as such, if wow is ruining your marriage, rather he chooses to accept it or not, then you need counceling because of the way you feel, if he refuses then u know what you have to do. You almost left once and it forced him to open his eyes, pull his head out of his ***, and see what he was really doing. This needs to be fixed, as far as the band thing goes, if he is still in it, it probably needs to go to. If you are feeling this way in your marriage you need to make some decisions. Did you get married when you were young? By the sound of your question he seems like he is still young, however after thirteen years i can only imagine he is not that young, so after thirteen years it is only natural for you to grow up and mature, he needs to as well. I know it sucks and you love him but he obvisouly loves you to and if he see's you take action i have faith that the two of you can fix this or that you can find happiness and worthwhile. Depression can be life threatening, it isn't fair of you to allow this to happen, especially if you have children. You don't deserve to spiral down and know that you are doing it the whole time, and over a man especially, yes he's your husband, but no, he is not acting like it. Please see someone tomorrow if possible, if not monday! Your friends are out of town, great! go stay with one until you two can make some decisions and work things out, if u have a job, budgeting problems, bills, a million reasons why you can't leave for a while well guess what, what use are yoi going to be to anyone, including yourself when you are so rockbottom you can't even get out of bed, or when you are so rockbottom you do something u regret just to feel good about yourself for 2 seconds. Please please go tsomewhere, tell him exactly how you feel and go. REmember, it's not forever. good luck, i will pray for u